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Not all Yoga is the Same

Thursday, March 25th, 2010

This weekend I was blessed to spend time with my teacher, Mary, along with fellow IAY teachers Bob, Kim and Madeleine, and extended studio family Donna, Cecile, Jessica, Silvia, and Tami.

We all attended a workshop in Ukiah on the Spring Equinox—celebrating beginnings, how to find balance in through the shifts of life, and what equanimity means to us.

Another woman in attendance, Susan, was visiting from out of town. She was new to Mary’s teaching.

During a partner discussion exercise, she shared with me that she was a little taken aback by the “lack of breath instruction” from Mary. She’s not telling me how to breath, when to breath.

Susan was also a little woozy over all of the permission and invitations to find your own safe and meaningful place in the poses. Create the shapes from the inside out using your sense of inner space, your breath, your instinctual sense.

She has been a student of This is how we/you do it. All of the time.

This is not how Mary approaches Yoga.

It’s not how I/we approach Yoga.

The brightness in Susan’s eyes, the wonder in her voice, the refreshing feeling she said she had, were all so exciting to witness.

I forget that not everyone has the experience of intuitive inquiry and permission and responsibility that Mary offers through asana. That I believe we offer at It’s All Yoga.

It made me so thankful. For lots of things:

  • Mary and her wisdom and heart and honesty.
  • The fact that we all have a path, and all paths don’t go the same place, the same way.
  • The IAY family, which, of course, includes you.
  • Thank goodness not all yoga is the same.

    ***

    A favorite poem…

    Love Does That

    All day long a little burro labors, sometimes
    with heavy loads on her back and sometimes just with worries
    about things that bother only
    burros.

    And worries, as we know, can be more exhausting
    than physical labor.

    Once in a while a kind monk comes
    to her stable and brings
    a pear, but more
    than that,

    he looks into the burro’s eyes and touches her ears

    and for a few seconds the burro is free
    and even seems to laugh,

    because love does that.

    Love frees.

    ~Meister Eckhart

    A seed

    Saturday, January 23rd, 2010

    Some of the links in this post take you to my more personal blog where there is some less-polished sharing. And swearing. Just so we're clear...

    When my beloved teacher, Mary, was here in December for our workshop, I was blessed to spend a bit of time with her.

    In the process of catching up, I shared about my kidney stone, the forthcoming culmination of our first Teacher Training program, and other bits about the pace and fullness of life.

    She looked at me. And then looked me again… and this time she looked through me. Through the surface layers of excitement and adrenaline and momentum.

    And she said, “You need some time off.”

    “Oh ya,” I said. “Ron and I will probably take a weekend away after the new year.”

    “No, you need a month off.”

    Even with the sophistication of her british accent, I thought she’d totally lost her mind.

    After some banter and a list of all the reasons I couldn’t take that much time off, her response was, “That’s exactly why you need to do it.”

    Her point is multifaceted… that the intensity of our lives in this culture is such that we often don’t even know how tired or depleted we are.

    That I am not being true to the practice or a good example for our community if I don’t take care of myself.

    That I have been working radically hard, long hours, and I need a radical break.

    While this idea has been hard to digest, it has certainly stuck with me.

    A month off of teaching? A month for my own practice? A month for me?

    I already knew my word for the year was going to be self-care. I knew the holidaze, a whirlwind trip to NYC, and Haramara were all coming up, and come the end of January I would be tired.

    Still, the committee of critics in my head was busy:

    You have to be at the studio or everything will fall apart.

    Followed by the popular,

    No one will care if you’re at the studio, in fact it might be better without you.

    There were many reasons like these, all based in fear, smallness and ego.

    It was perhaps these reasons that made it all the more clear that I needed to take time off. A month off.

    And so… I will be taking the month of February off of teaching! I am excited. Elated, really. And so so thankful that I have the ability to do this.

    I will be at the studio (probably more) soaking up the good love that our amazing instructors give so freely and skillfully. I will be posting updates on both blogs (the mild here, the spicy here). I will be taking it easy, lying around, and not feeling bad about it.

    I never would have done this if it weren’t for Mary. And maybe you read this and know in your heart that you need a break… be it a month, a day, an afternoon. As she promised to do to me, I will hound you until you take care of yourself.

    And all the reasons you say you can’t do it are just the reasons you need to.