Archive for March, 2010

Spring

Tuesday, March 30th, 2010

Ah… Spring.

Unpredictable, enchanting, maddening. There are new buds. There are things that have died off and need to be removed. In some ways it encompasses the full cycle of life.

More so than usual this year, I find myself fighting with the weather:

I wish it was warmer. I wish it wasn’t windy.
I wish it was some other way…

This is not a very productive conversation.

Stephen Levine, in his book, A Gradual Awakening, makes these comments: “…Perhaps the clearest definition we could have of mental suffering: wishing we were elsewhere. Wanting things to be otherwise is the very essence of suffering. We almost never directly experience what pain is, because our reaction to it is so immediate that most of what we call pain is actually our experience of resistance to that phenomenon. And the resistance is usually a good deal more painful than the original sensation.”

I am creating more suffering by wishing the weather otherwise than the weather would actually cause alone.

At the same time, it’s helpful to notice my wishing and recognize it as a disconnection from the perfection of the present moment.

To let the language alert me of the way in which I have closed down and cut myself off from possibility.

And to let the noticing instantly change the pattern — just noticing creates more space, loosens the grip on wanting things to be a certain way.

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How do create more suffering for yourself? What clues do you use to bring you back? What does spring mean to you?

Not all Yoga is the Same

Thursday, March 25th, 2010

This weekend I was blessed to spend time with my teacher, Mary, along with fellow IAY teachers Bob, Kim and Madeleine, and extended studio family Donna, Cecile, Jessica, Silvia, and Tami.

We all attended a workshop in Ukiah on the Spring Equinox—celebrating beginnings, how to find balance in through the shifts of life, and what equanimity means to us.

Another woman in attendance, Susan, was visiting from out of town. She was new to Mary’s teaching.

During a partner discussion exercise, she shared with me that she was a little taken aback by the “lack of breath instruction” from Mary. She’s not telling me how to breath, when to breath.

Susan was also a little woozy over all of the permission and invitations to find your own safe and meaningful place in the poses. Create the shapes from the inside out using your sense of inner space, your breath, your instinctual sense.

She has been a student of This is how we/you do it. All of the time.

This is not how Mary approaches Yoga.

It’s not how I/we approach Yoga.

The brightness in Susan’s eyes, the wonder in her voice, the refreshing feeling she said she had, were all so exciting to witness.

I forget that not everyone has the experience of intuitive inquiry and permission and responsibility that Mary offers through asana. That I believe we offer at It’s All Yoga.

It made me so thankful. For lots of things:

  • Mary and her wisdom and heart and honesty.
  • The fact that we all have a path, and all paths don’t go the same place, the same way.
  • The IAY family, which, of course, includes you.
  • Thank goodness not all yoga is the same.

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    A favorite poem…

    Love Does That

    All day long a little burro labors, sometimes
    with heavy loads on her back and sometimes just with worries
    about things that bother only
    burros.

    And worries, as we know, can be more exhausting
    than physical labor.

    Once in a while a kind monk comes
    to her stable and brings
    a pear, but more
    than that,

    he looks into the burro’s eyes and touches her ears

    and for a few seconds the burro is free
    and even seems to laugh,

    because love does that.

    Love frees.

    ~Meister Eckhart

    White Wings

    Monday, March 22nd, 2010

    The doves have returned to the “breeding tree” in our backyard.

    Every year they remodel the inadequate nest, sit patiently, feed dependably, protect, demonstrate, and watch as the babies take flight. It’s like a nursery—one baby after another all spring through summer.

    The first baby left the nest last week. I watched as he tested his wings, teetering on a branch, mom nearby. He looked naive and confident. The next day he was gone.

    I’ve been thinking a lot about how we all take this risk—leaving the safety of what is comfortable and known to explore and more fully participate in life… in the world.

    At times it seems like just sharing ourselves in relationship, exposing our dreams and fears is the same kind of jump. Will we be held? Will we fall?

    This is the poem from tonight’s practice, for the little dove, for all of us leaving the nest:

    How to Regain Your Soul

    Come down Canyon Creek trail on a summer
    afternoon
    that one place where the valley floor opens out.
    You will see
    the white butterflies. Because of the way
    shadows
    come off those vertical rocks in the west, there
    are
    shafts of sunlight hitting the river and a deep
    long purple gorge straight ahead. Put down your
    pack.

    Above, air sighs the pines. It was this way
    when Rome was clanging, when Troy was being
    built,
    when campfires lighted caves. The white
    butterflies dance
    by the thousands in the still sunshine. Suddenly
    anything
    could happen to you. Your soul pulls toward the
    canyon
    and then shines back through the white wings to
    be you again.

    ~William Stafford

    Peonies

    Sunday, March 14th, 2010

    This morning the green fists of the peonies are getting ready
    to break my heart
    as the sun rises,
    as the sun strokes them with his old, buttery fingers

    and they open —
    pools of lace,
    white and pink —
    and all day the black ants climb over them,

    boring their deep and mysterious holes
    into the curls,
    craving the sweet sap,
    taking it away

    to their dark, underground cities —
    and all day
    under the shifty wind,
    as in a dance to the great wedding,

    the flowers bend their bright bodies,
    and tip their fragrance to the air,
    and rise,
    their red stems holding

    all that dampness and recklessness
    gladly and lightly,
    and there it is again —
    beauty the brave, the exemplary,

    blazing open.
    Do you love this world?
    Do you cherish your humble and silky life?
    Do you adore the green grass, with its terror beneath?

    Do you also hurry, half-dressed and barefoot, into the garden,
    and softly,
    and exclaiming of their dearness,
    fill your arms with the white and pink flowers,

    with their honeyed heaviness, their lush trembling,
    their eagerness
    to be wild and perfect for a moment, before they are
    nothing, forever?

    ~Mary Oliver

    Invention

    Saturday, March 13th, 2010

    Tonight the moon is a cracker,
    with a bite out of it
    floating in the night,

    and in a week or so
    according to the calendar
    it will probably look

    like a silver football,
    and nine, maybe ten days ago
    it reminded me of a thin bright claw.

    But eventually –
    by the end of the month,
    I reckon –

    it will waste away
    to nothing,
    nothing but stars in the sky,

    and I will have a few nights
    to myself,
    a little time to rest my jittery pen.

    ~Billy Collins

    Sequence Sunday

    Sunday, March 7th, 2010

    Each Sunday will feature an asana sequence. Feel free to add, omit, or interpret as you like!

    A Yin indulgence

    Wide Child’s Twist, each side – 2 min each
    1st leg:
    1/2 cowface legs – 4 min fold
    1/2 cowface legs – 2 min side bend
    Marichyasana Twist
    Pigeon – 5 min
    Diva fold – 2 min
    Repeat sequence, other leg
    Puppy – 3 min
    Snail or Bridge on block – 4 min
    Fish release
    Knee hug
    Savasana

    Hump Ditty Helper

    Wednesday, March 3rd, 2010

    Nothing better to help us over a hurdle (or mid-week hump) than a poem. Each Wednesday will feature a new one sent with a personalized invitation: pause, read, relish, sigh. Repeat as desired!

    Self-Pity

    I never saw a wild thing
    sorry for itself.
    A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough
    without ever having felt sorry for itself.

    ~D. H. Lawrence